Dear (Not Easily Grossed Out) Friends,
I’ve finally finished the first Outlander book! Not sure if I will continue with reading the series. It’s really tempting to just watch the series. Don’t get the wrong idea! It was a really great read. But, I want to focus on the rest of my reading list for the rest of the summer and potentially the rest of the year. I started reading the Cripple of Inishmaan. So far so good. I should be done before I get on the bus to Philly on Saturday morning. Dead Souls next? It’s a much more complicated than CoI and just as long as Outlander. It will eat up my month. We shall see!
Why did I address this to “not easily grossed out friends”? Keep reading.
Work started off and was going to end like any other day, quiet, with the occasional screaming from the woman. Her dementia makes her prone to mood swings and she screams that she wants to die. An hour before I was supposed to leave she called me into her bedroom bathroom. And there it was. A disgusting shit smeared mess. She clogged her toilet and it had been stewing there for two days. Unclogging the toilet wasn’t hard. Afterwards I put on some gloves and got out the cleaner. She ran out of Comet, so I found this Easy Off All-Purpose Cleaner. That was toxic. I couldn’t stop coughing. The spray was worse than the feces. Since toilet scrubber was in worse shape than the toilet it self I had to wipe off chunks of shit off of the scrubber and threw it out anyway. At that point I felt like throwing up. But I cleaned every part of that bathroom and Lysol-ed every inch. She usually leaves smear stains on her sink and sometimes in her bed. Days like this remind me I need a job that doesn’t involve cleaning up shit.
Dear Broke Friends,
It’s another day and another habit of mine to complain about. I didn’t get to go to Tarzan because I had no money. I showered, put on clothes, put on makeup. The last thing I did was check my bank account. When I did I realized are several monthly charges made on the 3rd! This sucks. So instead of spending the night outside I spent it inside again. I needed to be productive so I folded up a piece of paper and listed every expense I had in the month of June. Turns out I’ve made enough to pay my bills but I spent a ridiculous amount of money on food and wasteful things. I thought I had been eating more home cooked meals. Maybe I have a bit more but I didn’t curb my restaurant habit. It’s absurd to be poor because you like $15 dollar meals. Champagne tastes, beer budget. A $15 dollar meal isn’t fancy but it’s fancy for my budget. Especially if you do it every week. Another really bad thing is that I spent $30 at Dunkin Donuts. Yeah, no. Why?
At first I thought I thought I need to spend all the time I’m not working indoors locked away with the convenience of my fridge. That’s not quite it. I need to learn how to balance my spending and make better choices. When I calculated how much money I brought in I realized I could afford a room somewhere and my bills. Maybe not a lot go out or save but just enough. How absurd is it that I now have $5 to my name? In addition I had to borrow money to be able to pay my credit card bill due today. Three of those meals could pay for my bill for the month.
All and all, it’s all about the most bang for your buck. So let’s see how July goes. So far I blew my $75 dollar savings on payments and a trip to Long Island. Did you know a round trip between Atlantic Terminal and Suffolk County is $26 dollars?! Ridiculous.
P.S. I know when most of my bills are due. Especially those loans, one of those charges was unexpected. It was the gym that killed my account! Which is impossible to kill!
Happy Independence Day! I’ve spent most of this re-watching Game of Thrones. Later today I’m off to watch Tarzan. I’d like to do a formal review of the film when I return.